I feel like dating is so hard these days. Let alone my situation. For me, gay dating never felt right to me. I never fit in with the gay crowd or culture and I’m just not attracted to gay men…maybe because they have a tendency to be a bit effeminate. Not all gay men but most.

I’ve always related more to heterosexual relationships. I love the chemistry and dynamics between a man and a woman. Masculine vs feminine. I always felt feminine naturally physically and mentally but never to the point where I would call myself trans and make a transition.

I just really want to be able to blend in with society and the “straight” world. I know that sounds bad but it’s just how I feel. I wanna be able to do normal things without judgement or ridicule.

So I guess I need to find the right guy. I want an open minded man. Maybe he’s bi, straight or curious. I just want him to be naturally masculine. I also want him to love and encourage my femininity. But at the same time he’s okay and understands that I’m a guy in public.

Sometimes I feel like a unicorn looking for another unicorn lol or trying to find a man is like looking for a needle in a haystack.

Again dating is hard. I’d love to have a friendship where I get to be his girlfriend in private. I would love to come home to my boyfriend everyday. Hug him, cuddle him, have lots of sex with him and just grow closer to him. I want him to love my sexy outfits, to love my boobs, my ass, and all of my curves and sees me as the girl I am.

Maybe there’s a straight man out there that’s tired of the drama of women and want to look for something new. But I want him to still love my femininity and for us to have the man/woman chemistry.