*Basically what the title says, looking for help/advice/stories from this community on how to break out of a seemly never ending burnout period with limited options\*

Back Story:

I am a fellow AuDHD woman in her mid 30's and currently I'm experiencing a really bad burnout period in my life, it's starting to scare me because moments like this have never lasted longer than a month-2 months in the past and now it's going on almost 7 months with no signs of letting up.

I seem to have lost my ability to "mask" lately, and everything I need to do is taking up too much energy, from just getting up in the morning, to making myself something to eat. Nobody seems to understand how much more energy my body and brain work overtime just to complete the basic tasks compared to "neurotypical" people. I cry almost every day over the stupidest things, I'm angry all the time, and I'm extremely exhausted. My sensory issues have gotten worse. The skill regression has gotten horrendous lately and I'm becoming quiet and non-verbal because when I talk I just sound stupid and my brain seems to refuse to work to form proper sentences or remember people's faces and names when I need them to (not 10 min later).

It seems all I can do now is sleep, wake up and barely auto piolet myself through the work day, take care of my 2 dogs, and then scroll on my phone all night.

I'm not sure what the proper term, and I hate to use this but I've always been "high-functioning" and unfortunately everything is backfiring now and I have no one in my life to help me now that I'm experiencing this long period of what seems like all kinds of levels of hell.

I'm going through a divorce since last summer that will be finalized this summer. I now live alone with my two dogs, and work 2 jobs (same boss/owns a couple businesses) but even at full time hours it doesn't pay enough to keep me a float even though it's above minimum wage. I realize this is a big stressor being on a low single income again as I can't afford all my basic living bills each month and am always stressing about groceries and when a service will be shut off due to not having money to keep caught up on everything. I desperately need an oil change for my car, and I'm still running on my winter tires because I can't afford new summer tires for my 12 year old car. I really need to find a 3rd job, but I just do not have the mental capacity and energy left with this burnout to even start that journey.

I don't have any friends to turn to, guess my personality turns everyone off of me. My bosses and coworkers (who all get paid more than me by $5 hourly) are not understanding in the slightest and laugh about my stressed financial situation and my weird quips and stims. My family is choosing to ignore that I'm in a dire financial and mental health crisis right now because my brother and his fiancé are having a big extravagant engagement party in August (the only way I'm attending is because my parents said they would cover the cost of gas and accommodations just so I can make an appearance for my brother so we seem like a "normal" family, otherwise I would have to refuse the invite due to having no extra money).

Dating is non existent, haven't really met anyone since splitting with my ex even though he already trapped another lady with his narcissistic personality. Dating apps are horrendous, and I've gotten barely any matches, and when you do match, they can't even hold a conversation or are only looking for hookups. Haven't met any guy in the "real world" as everyone I see on a daily basis is usually 30 years older than me or already taken. The one guy I sort of had an interest in, I think I just was hyper fixating really, was because we had things in common, and he was genuinely nice to me and I saw him almost everyday due to my new job (not same department)...but he has a girlfriend. So that hyperfixation got squashed pretty quickly as I do not wish to ruin anyone's relationship due to my selfishness. I really miss having that "person" to be there for you, that wants to spend time with you and talk with you and form a solid, loving relationship. That was a big part of my life that kept me stable through some of my meltdowns and burnout periods in the past. But it seems like I'm going to be single now for the rest of my life. I mean I can't even afford the coffee to go out and meet someone, so it's not like I should expect anything anyways.

Also I am not taking any medications, or supplements currently, I am dealing with my AuDHD raw. I can't afford any medications even with my insurance plan as that's an added expense I can't afford (doesn't cover 100%).

I just feel like I am going crazy, most days I wish I didn't have to wake up. Many days when I'm alone, I find my panic attacks getting so bad that instead of crying, I just laugh maniacally like the Joker (from Batman) because that's all that escapes my chest and throat.

Is there anything I can do to try get out of this burnout period without having to spend money on things? I sleep and nap as much as I can, spend time with my dogs, go for walks, listen to music and podcasts, listen to white noise/meditation music at night, but this time nothing is helping.