I spoke with a popular Twitter Astrologer a couple months ago and she spoke to a Neptune transit covering me rn. I’m changing my relationship with alcohol because of the convo, and like working on my food and addiction to over giving.

But like idk I feel so hyper focused on my career bc it’s the only thing going right in my life.. but my soul feels depleted instead of happy with all The things I’m doing “right” on paper. Working on health, cutting toxic friends and habits, sulking but understanding the need to be single.

On the other hand, I used to be a spicy ballerina and while I could see the traps of bad shit I never felt so vocal and electrified.. my soul felt vulnerable and transparent and I loved it. my power over men and circumstances boosted something I didnt know was in me. In the back of my Mind I always felt like “I’m using my powers for evil lol”

So I stopped but I feel so unfulfilled. Am I really a good two shoes purist..Should I try and be both? Secret OF vibes while Being a nun in the public eye?

Or is it like non intergrated generational trauma shit.. bc obvs the family is interesting . Is this way of yearning a trap this lifetime I need to overcome, and stay the course I’m on. Business is good I train and help people.: social services stuff. Will I’ll find something to spark me again? Do I need an “evil” outlet?