I had a questionable AP experience tonight (I’m still a beginner though).I was listening to a sleep meditation dedicated to meeting my spirit guide - so I didn’t have any intention to AP. I was in between fully awake and fully asleep.

Anyway, as I’m in my pseudo dream state, it felt like someone came up behind me, threw a blanket over me, and thrust me into nothingness - I heard a static noise that sounded like a cat hissing almost. I was tumbling downwards then rose up and floated around for a few seconds before I felt myself come back into my body. I felt fear. It felt like a kidnapping or something.

I woke up but fell quickly back asleep into that dream state - and in this experience, I was shown a woman with a man coming up behind her, and he gently put his arm around her. Something in me told me to stop being scared so I allowed myself to be “taken” again. This time, instead of feeling the “blanket” thrown over me, I simply fell backwards into nothingness - but then felt myself levitate out of my body in bed (versus tumbling like the first time) and as I floated into space, I saw beautiful colors and a white light. But fear crept in again from the first experience and despite affirming “love, happiness, etc”, I then quickly saw myself back in my room, in bed sleeping (with a smile) and I descended quickly back into my body.

Sorry that was long! My question is - the whole feeling of being “kidnapped” is what brings me fear of having this experience again, especially since I didn’t have the intention to AP in the first place.

Much love and thanks to you all for any help ❤️