It's been a rough time for too long.

I am a mother of two beautiful children and I can't do it. I have a rare genetic condition that leaves me exhausted and with dislocations that make it impossible to do anything near what I used to.

We moved in with my in-laws in July to help with my elderly FIL. Grandpa passed away November eighth and grandma hasn't come out of her room since. I don't know anyone in this city.

My husband was just diagnosed with colorectal cancer and begins treatment next week. He is beside himself with worry and is afraid he's not going to live. He's lost so much weight and can hardly do anything anymore. He's been on leave from work for a few months now and his leave pay isn't as much as his regular pay.

I just want to get my kids some toys from their Santa letters and try to have this Christmas be happy for them.

I feel anxious about posting, but I can't find any other options. The Salvation army in our area does sign-ups in October, so we missed out for food or toys.

Today, while trying to figure out what went wrong with my registration on r/randomactsofchristmas, my microphone input my voice saying "I want to enter, but I'm having trouble getting registered." Now I'm banned because it entered it as a comment.

I honestly feel like I can't handle any more life changing news and am trying to stay positive and just focus on this holiday to try to get my family's spirits up.

Thank you for taking the time to read.