1. Struggling here.

How do you learn that you probably can’t love yourself and that the best thing you can do is learn to accept yourself? How do you deal with no longer comparing yourself to others, but rather, comparing yourself to who you used to be? Knowing that you’re a shell of your former self?

I’ve always been about accountability and growth. Self love through realization. My realizations recently have made me come to terms with the fact that I’m no longer who I used to be, in fact, I’ve been told I’ve not made progress, but the opposite. It’s killing me internally right now because I’m critical of myself to a definite fault. These things eat away at me until I can figure how to motivate myself to learn some lesson. It feels like the lesson here is that there’s no point in trying anymore. It hurts. Self forgiveness doesn’t come without some sort of sacrifice or price.

Sorry for being a downer.