So I'm gonna be honest here, I was snooping. My boyfriend (of 3 years) has his Google account logged in on my laptop and I got curious.

I managed to find his Google search history and scrolled through the past week. We don't live together and had been busy with work so we hadn't really spoken, but I often stay at his place for weeks at a time, and this last Monday I'd come back to my house after stating at his for a month.

Anyway, I looked at his search history. There was lots of normal stuff and some porn searches. I don't mind him using porn, I use it too. But I don't like OF because it seems much more personal. So one night, he opened his usual porn site and typed in his ex girlfriend's name. I know he was looking for her because he typed in her full name first, and then just her first name. I was in shock. To my knowledge, his ex has never made porn (she's a teacher so if she did it obviously wouldn't be under her full name). But why? Why search for that? I feel so betrayed and stupid and disrespected. He was horny and instead of just talking to me, he went searching for nonexistent porn videos of his ex.

This ex was most serious before me, or so he says. We've had problems about her before. One time he was showing me something on Instagram and his last search was her, he saw me freeze. He told me it was because he spoke to her about an internet bill that used to be in his name at her house (in another country). I told him it's ok if he just got curious one time and decided to see what she was up to. I told him it's normal to feel curious and that I sometimes feel that too. He denied it a million times and said people only search up their exes if they still have feelings for them. After that, I found him searching up his exes countless times. I reminded him of what he said and he said he doesn't think that anymore. I asked him to block her and he did.

A while ago, I realised she had been unblocked again. She has a partner so I don't think there's anything going on between my bf and her, I just think he's always searching her up, and now this.

I really don't know what to think. Am I overreacting and is it normal to search up ex's names on porn sites?

I came to his house last night trying to act normal so I could confront him in person, but I didn't have the guts and wanted some advice first. He also told me out of the blue last night that he's going to a beach 1hr away with our friends today so I'm currently at his place on my own. I asked if I was invited and he said that he thought I wouldn't want to go because 2 weeks ago they invited us and I said no because it was 11°C. He then asked if I was going and I said no. I wish I had said its clear he doesn't want me there.

So, I'm planning to act like I was on his computer and found it on there. All I had to do was type in the first 3 letters of her name on Google and it came up anyway. I also feel so dumb staying at his house waiting for him to come home, I think I'm going to go home and leave him a note. I just don't know what to say to him.

What do I do??? Am I being crazy??

TLDR: Boyfriend of 3 years searched his ex's full name on a porn site and I don't know whether I'm overreacting or not.