That’s interesting! I’m glad you’ve taken the steps to better your attachments. Especially being so mindful of it before bribing a child into the world. It’s crazy how even the smallest interactions (or lack thereof) as an infant can shape a child’s entire outlook on the world and relationships.

I took a psych test recently, and it was figured that I’m an Ambivalent / Anxious attachment style, which makes complete sense given my anxiety and OCD. It’s interesting, as I grew up with a single mom (but very close extended family) and I don’t ever remember us not having a good relationship.

It typically manifests in my romantic relationships only, which means it could be credited to the fact that I grew up without a father in my life. I can’t seem to break the cycle, though. It’s a constant pulling and pushing, this dance back and forth, and I don’t know how to quell it and get rid of my deep fears of abandonment. I know the constant questions of reassurance from my husband (after 6 years) grind him down, but it’s an obsessive need to be reminded that he’s not going anywhere.