Stubby was 13 years old. She was diagnosed with a plethora of diseases and disorders in mid-2022. This includes: HIGH blood pressure, chronic kidney disease, an adrenal gland tumor, a heart murmur, Bladder stone, kidney stone and IBS.
This was a lot to process as she had been healthy in her last vet visit and nothing was detected, especially nothing to this extreme. She would occasionally pee outside of the litter box, then would be diagnosed with an UTI and get on antibiotics for a week-ish.
During our 2022 visit, The doctor told me she had a 40% chance of making it through the night on the first night. I opted to keep her hospitalized and hope for the best. 5 days later, she was home <3
In the last year, she routinely takes 5 medications and is on a special diet.
Fast forward to Monday. She hadn't eaten in a few days, and therefore hadn't gotten her medication. We went to the emergency vet and she got checked in right away.
The doctor (who was so kind and patient) let me know that Stubby's BP was 300 . Normal BP is approx. 150. She also detected an arrhythmia. We went over treatment options and long term goals. The first goal (should I choose to proceed) was to get her blood pressure down. This required starting a drug that has been less effective in cats (than dogs) and also runs the risk of cyanide poisoning.
Other things to consider: she was at a high risk of having a stroke. I was also informed that Stubby's diseases were getting progressively worse. The doctor then mentioned that after she seriously descended into her finals days/weeks, she and I would be right back to where we were then.
She maybe had 1-2 months left of "healthy" living before she really went downhill.
I had to make a decision. And I feel like it happened so fast. I knew in my gut it was the right thing to do and now I'm regretting it. What if I had given her a chance to recover? What if her life was ended too soon? What if..What if..
Stubby passed in my arms at 7:36 on Monday evening. Every day since then has been a rollercoaster. I won't/can't remove her belongings. I don't know if I'll ever be able to. I miss her so much.
I keep rethinking my decision to say goodbye to her. I have the memory of me holding her in my arms as she passed. I am heart broken.

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The vets told me they were in contact with their colleagues at other hospitals trying to figure out the best treatment but ultimately hinted at saying goodbye.

Species: Cat

Age: 13
Sex/Neuter status: Female, spayed
Breed: Domestic Short Hair
Body weight: ~10 lbs
History: Please see above
Clinical signs: Please see above
Duration: 1 year
Your general location: Los Angeles, CA