Like do you ever just try filling that void of emptiness that comes from being lonely with NSFW content? Like all I want is to date, and love someone, and hold them in my arms. Yes I want to have sex with them and to be intimate (both sfw & nsfw). But I want everything else too - the good & the bad. To persevere and overcome & be better with that person- alas I have no of that

In turn I’ve been trying to fill that void. Many different things and ideas but none due anything. One of which being indulging in NSFW content. No not masturbation, or anything of that nature. No sexting or hooking up either (I’m personally not a one night stand type of guy) but just viewing NSFW posts. Watching actual real couples content, leaving comments bout how beautiful so&so looks, I mean posting in dirty related r4r subs in search of casual chats in hopes to find a spark of something but it’s not what I want. And etc.

But in the end it just eats at part of me each time. It’s not what I want. It’s not healthy for me to be doing so… it’s just a cruel reminder of what I don’t have and makes me feel more alone. The joy of mental health & trying to date for love in 2024 I guess……

Morgan Wallen was right. I do just wanna love somebody