So I need some advice...

I'm 38f, my guy is 46, we're together 2yrs now, and just moved in together about 4months ago. Our sex life is AHHHHMAZING...he is a fking STUD... like, I never knew sex could be like this...I'd say we're both pretty experienced, plenty of partners (without being...excessive...) and at least for me, being somewhat experimental, (I dont wanna know details about his past), but I've never felt like he makes me feel. We're both feeling like freaking teenagers, it's insane. Everything he does makes me feel like I'm being shocked with lightning through my whole body in the best way! And every time he's through, he's snoring within minutes with a big goofy smile lol...and goes on and on about it the next day every time he calls me from work. It's AWESOME.

So my only thing is, I wanna do more with him! We're older, so logistics makes it tougher lol, yesterday after the kids left for school we attempted the kitchen island of our new house (finally!), then tried the couch, but we ended up in our bed lol. We were in a motorcycle accident (yes, he's a hot sexy af biker!) a few months ago, and he has a torn acl and meniscus and will be getting his surgery in oct...so that's making things even harder.

I'm pretty calm as my demeanor, chill, reserved, shy, all that, so I don't think he sees me wanting what I actually want...I don't think he realizes I want the kinky crazy that I crave from him...just because it doesn't quite match up to who I am like, day to day...if that makes sense? I know he likes it rough, but I think he might be toning it down because he thinks I want it that way lol...

I know, just talk to himmmm, but if it were that easy I wouldn't be here lol...I just don't know what to say! I'm obviously overthinking it like a LOT, but like, what exactly DO I say? How do I say I want something more or different without making him feel like what he's doing isn't enough? Because omg it soooo is lol, it's the best thing in the world, I just want more of him! I just don't have a clue how to make that conversation happen...

I've never had a healthy sexual relationship before this, sex has felt good and all, but never been so 2 sided, or felt like THIS before...so I definitely DONT want him to EVER think ANYTHING is wrong!!!! But that also means I have no idea how to have conversations like that, how to bring it up, what to say, how far to go with it, I'm pretty submissive when it comes to the actual sex, so like, I would rather him know what I want and take that control and do those things than me like, idk, for example tie myself up lol, cuz that'd be weird haha...

Anyways reddit, help a girl out here! I'm sure the obv answer here is to grow a backbone and talk to the guy I'm crazy about and who's just as crazy about me, lol, but easier said than done when ya girls brain is all messed up from the d-bags before dude came along!