A cumulation of my experiences have brought me to the point where I am sexually desensitized.

Lost my virginity at 13 to a junior in high school she was on the pill and told me to finish inside her. At that moment sex became my main focus. I went through the rest high school and college and have at least 50 body’s. I ended up going to the same college as the girl I lost my virginity too. Oddly enough my roommate went to high school with her roommate. One night after a party I went back with her dorm to hook up with her roommate and she was getting spit roasted by to black guys. Flipped a switch in me.

Senior year I met this girl and we got serious. My urge for different pussy was still there so I would always hint towards swinging and group play. After college we moved into an apartment. After a night of partying my roommate told my GF he jerks off when he hears us fucking and she told him to come in and watch. That started everything.

We started going to clubs and meeting couples, it was awesome. One night there was this black man with us and he had a massive dick, changed my GF forever. Things escalated quickly, she became more dominant and I eventually accepted my role as a cuckold. I became addicted to watching how much pleasure she got from giving me orders. I travel a lot for work, so one of our rules was if she was having people over she would record it or FaceTime me. I came home early from a trip to her being DPd by two jacked black guys. I wasn’t mad, but the trust just wasn’t there. Throughout this time I did some unimaginable things at her request. Things I never thought I would do in my life, but loved every second of it. We parted ways after that but are still friends and when I travel to her city we still link up.

I moved away and through a friend met a married couple looking for a third. It was fun to see them both figure out what to they wanted and progress. The wife was very dom and grew extremely kinky. Husband was a great sub. It was hard for me, I missed me ex but at the same time it was nice being a pawn for their pleasure. I became hooked on eating pussy and ass. After work every day I would go to their house and the wife would ride my face and squirt all over me. Once again, did things I never imagined I would do. That lasted a year and they moved out of state.

What I realized is my kink is pleasing others. There is nothing that gets me more charged up than making people orgasm.

A few months went by and I met this really nice girl. She had one boyfriend her whole life and they broke up. She was a perfect girl but I was no longer interested in “regular” sex. There was about a 3 week period where I didn’t cum. She finally asked me and I came clean about my experience and sexual interest. She was mortified and havnt talked to her since.

Through all of my experience, I have become completely desensitized to sex. When I masturbate I can only cum to cuckold or Hotwife material.

I have found it’s extremely difficult to find a new partner that shares the same interests or can even understand.

Let me know if anyone has any similar experience or advice. Happy to provide details on all aspects of my experience.