I just did it for the first time with a guy I was dating for 4 months. We ended mutually because I had more feelings for him and he’s not in the mindset to jump into something serious right now. Even though he kinda led me on.

Anyway, we had indescribable sexual chemistry. I’ve never met anyone I’ve been able to put all my walls down both in and out of the bedroom. I tried things I never thought I would try, or do again, or find someone to do with. I felt so much safety and fun with us having sex. We had a deep emotional and sexual connection. He’s just not in the mindset to be in something more serious, but also I am not either. I just still hold more emotions in our connection than he was able to for me.

Anyway he came over this evening so we could exchange things that we had of one another and get one last proper goodbye. Right before he left, I kinda said fuck it and asked if he wanted to have sex one last time since we had such amazing sex together. I’ve never had breakup sex, but it felt incredibly liberating during it and even shortly after. 2 hours later, now I feel super crappy about myself. I know after us ending, I’m not ready to go out and date new people and have sex with anyone new any time soon. But I know he’s very much going to do that. So I just fed his ego big time by doing this. And I wish he said goodbye to me but instead said “see you later” which really throws me in for a loop.

Anyway - how can I take my power back after initially feeling so great having this breakup sex but now feeling horrible? What’re your thoughts on breakup sex?