Like, for the longest time, thought I was just attracted to girls so, as a guy, thought I was just straight. I have a wide variety of things I can find attractive in girls even with some things that kind of conflict with one another such as both being attracted to muscular girls as well as plus size girls, attracted to short girls and to tall girls (especially if they're taller than me somehow as I'm abnormally tall myself), it almost feels like that JoCat video I've seen once where he just lists a bunch of varieties of girl body types and personalities and I agree with almost each and every single one.

But, thing is, I think I have some attraction to guys but that attraction is so narrow in comparison to my attraction to girls it feels weird. Like, I don't find muscular guys attractive, rather I find soft boys attractive, and I don't find beards attractive and seem to prefer them clean shaven. The weirdest part which I don't get is that I think I find boys that are "feminine" attractive, putting that in quotes because gender norms are bs yet for some reason still finding "feminine" boys attractive and almost no other kind of guys.

It feels odd how broad my tastes in girls are yet how narrow my tastes in guys are, and that the only guys I seem to find attractive are guys that are "feminine". It just... feels weird.