Trans woman here.

I lost my virginity but with a guy (well, actually two), and I was bottom with both.

Inserting my dick into someone else is a completely repulsive idea for me and triggers a lot of uncomfortable feelings. I feel zero attraction to a vagina (or a penis). My attraction pattern is more like a straight woman (according to a lesbian friend of mine) than a gay or straight or whatever man. Like, I want [in my case, want to have] vaginas and boobs but I want them to be on me not on another girl. Or, maybe we could both have boobs, that would be even better...

How did you think of straight sex before your first sexual intercourse with a woman? Did you also feel more or less the same way, like "I didn't want it until I tried it"? Did you also want a vagina or/and boobs on yourself in addition to the girl?