I’m in my mid 20’s now and still have not had an orgy yet, or any other kind of group sex scenario. I’m fairly conventionally attractive as a male as well I’ve had a couple shots where I blew it but even a threesome is fine and it’s getting depressing that I still haven’t experienced that and I’m getting older. I don’t even need everyone participating - a mix of men and women or just one perdon, mostly women I hope, just being in the room would turn me on an insane amount.

I will never ever say this because it would stick with me until I graduate but I wish I had the cajones in college to ask a girlfriend if someone can watch us. My attractive friend actually did once want to “film a sex tape for us out of curiosity” but obviously my gf outright dismissed it as the most invasive and weird thing ever and of course I was too scared and just played along, esp because we hadn’t been dating too long.

Also, one time my incredibly beautiful past gf confessed rather enthusiastically she’d want to have been with two guys. Of course it sounded amazing, but I felt like I had to lie again even if we were in the utmost private conversation between two lovers. Even though we don’t talk a ton anymore I’m almost thinking of telling her that just so I would’ve told a soul in the world.I’d discuss it with a therapist, but I don’t see any benefit of discussing my sexual fantasies with my friends or family.

Once you get the rumor as a non-straight male it basically changes things a little bit with them for life. Of course we all used to jerk it in the same room as kids on sleepovers but now we’re all cool normal presenting adults and we keep it buried deep deep below I can still remember the sound of my athletic and well endowed friend finishing in his sleeping bag two feet from me like it was yesterday. (

(Okay, I’ll admit this post is sounding pretty gay but I can assure you I’m sexually obsessed with women as well. In fact I honestly suspect some of these friends ave a couple genuinely gay thoughts as well, they just, like me, are happy enough being straight that it doesn’t warrant the monumental life change coming out entails.

These feelings are so strong and persistent that I feel like they’re almost more of a sexuality than simply a kink or desire. I have mainly had them since the beginning of my sexual awakening, I literally remember imagining my class mates boning, I only started writing myself into the stories later.

I’ve never so much as even a single kiss with a man but my sexuality confuses me here as well. My fantasies always feature attractive men and women, usually ones I know, having sex in various realistic scenarios with me playing a minor role somewhere. I’ve watched gay Porn with attractive men and it does absolutely nothing for me. I don’t think I’d be turned in by kissing a man either. But when I watch a beautiful man and woman fucking I’m watching them equally.

A couple of my closest friends on planet earth know that I’m not 100% straight but I’m very straight presenting and you have to really get to know me to see this. And even then they’d still probably say in like 92 percent straight. Sometimes in these fantasies it’s up to 20-30 people that I know personally as well. Some people think it’s weird to fantasize about your good friends. I’ve thought about this too but I feel like this is fruitless and trying to play thought police. I’m lucky enough to have friends who are for the most part pretty attractive and nice, and don’t really follow a lot of celebrities I could be thinking about. I do however keep the smaller circle of close male friends out.

Anyway, is this normal, like what percentage of males experience this ? Is it true like women that most men have some significant degree of bisexuality or is that just me? Is this just an effect of my porn addled mind or is this considered a type of sexuality.

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And more important WHERE can I FIND this sort of thing with ppl my age? I would be super down with even a MMF ratio I just am not into anyone over abt 27.

I want something that feels classy or natural though, like something between friends at somebody’s apartment. And not with strangers either- the more I know someone the more turned on I am abt then. Anything that is related to like kinks or leather or sex clubs or swinging clubs gives me the most dreadful idk.

TL;DR - I am outwardly straight male presenting an experienced dater in my 20s but as long as I can remember I fantasize mainly about group sex. How common is this, what’s it mean and where can I have it?