I've [M31] realized that most of my romantical relationships, I wasn't really into them. I liked them but no butterflies in tummy, that sorta thing.

I'm an awkward introvert. I've been told that that could be cute though. Lmao. The issue is I'm comfortable and quite my-self with women I don't really like or at best, semi-like. So, that's that. Although, that kind of women tend to be very forward and a lot of them would approach me first and straight-up ask to date. I would be smooth as heck because I would be more comfortable with them and usually, from the get-go as well.

A few that I was really into and somehow managed to get them to date me, have turned out to be not so great humans, way-way and much-much later on in the relationship.

The ones that I really-really like though. I would be a complete mess. I would fumble, you name it. I would freeze, say the most cringe and awkward things, sweat and all. Practically dying. So awkward. I would trip, fall, spill drinks. Everything would go wrong. I'm usually witty, sorta have my way with words but when I'm with women I'm really into, I would stutter, tremble and sometimes just silently smile, just like an utter idiot. Yikes, help ya'll.

I'm trying to date someone I would be really into. They wouldn't be able to see the real me, the true me which I honestly think ain't half bad. All they might see probably just a fumbling idiot. Yup, women that I don't really like and kinda like, they see me, the real me. Wouldn't work in the long-run. Would not be fair to both parties, to all.

Need tips on how to make women I really like able to see the real me just like the women I semi-like at best are able to see the real me.

Also, why women I only like a little really like me but the women I really like think I'm ain't it or just semi-like me back at best. Thanks and good day to all ya'll.