I’m 19M I don’t have anything better (that I want) to do. I’ve tried dating and honestly forget about dating I don’t have time for us talking and hanging less than 2 months then getting ghosted. Everyone keeps telling me I’m not ready and I need to work on myself anyways. Well fuck it I’m always horny and the only sexual experience I’ve had was being raped over and over again. Keyword WAS!!

Edit: I think the only way for me truly feel safe and move on is if I can have sex on my terms say it’s my choice! So yes I’m hyper focused on it! What else can I do? I’ve been to many different therapists and I can’t find anyone that doesn’t do anything other then talk therapy which just isn’t working for me.