Had a traumatic event health wise 4 years ago. GP put me on zoloft, with out really telling me why I am now at 150 mg. I have been crazy anxious my whole life, people can tell just by looking at me. Any way, in these last 4 years I have become some one else, I pick fights with my hysband, crazy impulsive and irrational, memory loss, and it is all stuff I interpreted as being as sick as I was (severe sepsis, surgeries, mentally trauma). I had been told that "sepsis brain" was what all of this craziness was caused by. I realized yesterday that it is the zoloft. I stopped taking it last night. I feel fine so far, but I know it hasn't been long enough to feel shitty yet. I am also on buspar 20 mg a day, and hydroxyzine as needed. I decided even after reading about how awful it is and talking to a friend that cold turkey was the way to try. I have put my husband through hell recently, I need to put myself through hell to ease his. My question is, will the buspar and hydroxyzine help with my impending mental doom?