Hello

I read something about this yesterday and it resonated with me. I am currently diagnosed with CPTSD and ADHD and being assessed for dissociation next month with a specialist.

I have previously asked my psychiatrist how I can go from sobbing in my car at start of journey to driving minutes later, and realising I have totally forgotten about being upset- She just said my brain is working to forget upsetting emotions. She also said she noted emotional detachment during our conversations and appts (I dont know what that means).

Ive been under home crisis team last 2.5 weeks because my mood was so low and hopeless after another appt where it felt we are making no progress and that in fact I felt worse than ever.

This seems to have triggered plans from my regular team which mean I now have a start date for therapy and an assessment date! Ive been waiting so long for this and hearing such news has lifted my mood significantly.

However I realised today it also means literally the day after this news, I was applying for extra work and generally feeling so much better that its like ive literally forgotten how unwell Ive been recently and in general for past 18 months? My manager at work had to keep me in check and tell me to slow down and that ive been very poorly.

Are these examples of an inability to have emotional permanence?

And how do I learn to remember all the emotions I clearly block out instead of dissociating from them?

Thanks