I had originally been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. First, here's why I know I never had that: I had to face my trauma this year and realize that what seemed like bipolar disorder was an inner need to earn the love and affection of those around me, even if I got hurt doing so. It displayed as emotional dyregulation. My parents rarely acknowledged when I did something right, choosing to focus on my failures consistently and then remind me of them for years to come. I was never allowed to say no either, but I tried to ignore that so they would one day be proud of me. It caused a lot of stress, which caused a lot of emotional outbursts. Why I'm sure I have autism: I can't tell when someone is lying to me. The whole "read the room" thing, I don't do well at all. I realized after being away from my parents that I actually am not at all the same around other people as I am when I'm by myself and comfortable. I like plushies, I always wear my headphones, even when I'm alone. I prefer a schedule. I have intense social anxiety. I have always tried to fit in, even going so far as realizing I accidentally copy international accents as long as they speak English. I don't like change if it involves immediately being around a lot of people I'm forced to interact with (so no parties, bars, or whatever). I also think I have ADHD because I do have some impulsive things I do and I have what feels like neverending energy when I go to exercise and I'm able to do it all day without feeling pain. I just wanted to know if anyone else was like this or was misdiagnosed like I was?