To give a little history, I believe my depression started way back when I was in high school. I had OCD before that, both were sort of left untreated until I turned 18 and rTMS was suggested to me. I completed the treatment, and didn’t appear to have problems other than that I had some confusion and my brain felt “different”. I can’t exactly describe how, but maybe the best description I can give is that I felt like a specific part of my brain was heavier than the rest. When I started university by the second semester (I was 20) the sensation in my brain got weirder and weirder and I started seeing images in my head, sort of like the images and intrusive thoughts I would see when I was struggling with OCD at a younger age except they wouldn’t bother me as much, so I ignored them. The sensation in my brain however was something new and very strange to me I even had an MRI taken because I thought it might be a tumor. Everything was OK besides my hypophysis gland having inflammation (which was considered normal). Fast forward to age 21, I had depression and still saw these weird imagery/thoughts I don’t even know what to call them and was under treatment taking risperidone and antidepressants. the psychiatrist thought all I had was anxiety.  Then by age 22, everything got much worse. I had paranoia and weird thoughts thinking my classmates were controlling my thoughts from afar using hypnosis techniques and those images hadn’t gone away either. Writing all these makes me sad but I truly need help I don’t know what to do. Now I am 28, visited many doctors, and tried out many medications. at first, they thought I was bipolar and now they’re saying you’re probably not. After 7 years,  I’m still in psychosis I believe, I still have abnormal thoughts/images and memories, and if the criteria to tell how much insight one has is how firmly one believes in their thoughts, after all this treatment I still cannot firmly say that I don’t believe in them, I’m saying yes some of these memories are true and everyone else is denying it. I can’t prove these things happened to me but others can’t disprove it either. I’ve rejected some of these memories, (like feeling I have some sort of telepathy or connection with specific celebrities), doubting others, but there are some that I just can’t reject. They feel so familiar; like it really happened. Anyway, my question is, is it possible for me to recover from psychosis? Or am I just gonna have to live with it for the rest of my life as I have the past 7 years?  How will I know I am recovering? It seems like it’s not getting better than a certain degree, and I won't ever feel normal again. My other question is, maybe there’s another method I can try other than medication that can be more promising?