Im not trying to be mean about the doctors

Im 35 female, bp2, ptsd, ocd, currently on lamictal 200mg and buspar 10mg

As an undiagnosed teenager i was given several different drugs. Prozac, paxil, lexapro, celexa, zoloft, effexor, cymbalta, welbutrin, vistaril, luvox

I kept returning to the doctor office complaining of my moods up and down, feeling angry, feeling worse. After each return i was given another and another, or different dosages, or different combinations. Finally i stopped taking them altogether. When i was 29 i was given zyprexa and latuda, both caused me to hallucinate. Then i was given lamictal and boop my mental problem was solved, which means i suffered for 15 years for no reason

I possibly have adhd but my new doctor is giving me everything except a stimulant. For 3 months i took strattera with a lot of up and down moods and a lot of anger. They then decided qelbree but that was worse. With both of these drugs i had intense outbursts, meltdowns/tantrums, mini hypomanic episodes, random crying spells. Since stopping these 2 drugs i have returned completely back to normal.

i told them ive had years of symptoms like this, why would they give me either of these 2 drugs? I have a follow up on the qelbree in 2 days. I chose to stop taking it on my own.