I've had issues since I was 10. Switching from one disorder to another.

Had anorexia for 3 years, went to binge eating overnight (pretty normal I think).

Stopped the daily binge eating and started self-harming and having depressive thoughts. Tried to kill myself, failed and stopped having those thoughts.

Started smoking weed from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep one joint after the other.

Then switched to alcohol (every single day too), then pills (3-4 days a week).

Had a weird period of climate anxiety at one point that didn't let me live the house so I stopped drinking for that time. Also had periods of social anxiety where I couldn't leave the house either.

For the past year I've been having OCD-like routines also from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep, so no socializing or things that interfer with that. Whenever I have major changes in my life I have panic attacks. Lately I've been having binge-eating episodes again, suicidal thoughts again.

My psychiatrist just tells me "You have symptoms of OCD, EDs, depression and anxiety" but doesn't want to diagnose me with anything because "she's not sure what the root cause is" so I'm just taking Diazepam because I have crazy insomnia (only sleep 2-3hours per night). Is this normal?? Do I really not have anything?

It interfers with my life to the point where I can look at my pc screen for hours but I'm completely paralyzed by my thoughts, so no work or studying, no hobbies, no friends, no relationships...

edit: I did get a diagnosis for my anorexia and for GAD but those were other psychiatrists. I just feel like I'm way worse now than when those were given to me which makes it even more confusing.