I have an ex which is also my TOTGA. Long story short, we were together since we were teenagers (16). But unfortunately we became LDR when I moved out of the country when I turned 20. As someone whose main love language is physical touch it was a nightmare. The start of our relationship wasn’t a beautiful love story. Trust issues were formed from both parties but eventually we worked it out. Anyway fast forward, LDR and things got messy. I cheated on her and eventually we met other people and broke up. We both had partners but for some reason last year we both went back home to the philippines (she left for work as well) and we decided to try again. It was one of the best 3 weeks of my life. Everything clicked like we didn’t even break up and everything was back to normal. And yes she was stupid enough to forgive me for cheating and accept me again in her life. Months went by LDR again, I was faithful this time but she had trust issues already. And I really felt that I didn’t deserve her and she deserves better so I decided to end things with her for good. Currently she’s with a guy right now and I think they are 8 months together and my close friends are saying that she is happier than ever. Which made me happy because that’s all that I ever wanted for her, to be happy. But at the same time it’s killing me inside day to day and is causing my depression at the moment because I knew I had the chance to be that guy, that guy that treats her right, the guy that provides everything that she’s ever wanted and needed. But I just couldn’t… I let my desires and temptations get the best of me. And now i’m afraid that i’m going to be single for the rest of my life because it’s almost a year already and i’m still not over her and I still love her.