My wife and I are going through relationship issues that we've been through before, and I've experiences a great deal of loss this year, the culmination of which has caused me to feel quite depressed. Despite my feelings and lack of motivation and interest in life, I do things to try to move through. I am in therapy longterm, I'm on medication to manage depression and ADD, I take vitamins supplements, i spend time outside. I'm trying to meditate and move my body more. I'm All that to say, I'm doing what I can to move through this.

In the past I've resigned myself to this feeling and way of being. I've learned a lot about myself since becoming a parent which has helped me better fight depression and manage it when it shows up. Being a parent has forced me to deal with depression because I can't lay around all day anymore, but it does lead to depression showing up as irritability and resentment.

As I'm trying to move through this I am just not sure how to be around my family, in particular my wife. When I'm depressed I have very little energy and I have very low range of emotions. I don't want to mask heavily but i also don't want to be a stick in the mud. It's hard for me to be around people and I'm certain it's hard for people to be around me. I try to be by myself and away and outside as much as possible which helps but I was hoping for suggestions for when I wake up feeling numb and annoyed, and when I have to be around my wife and 8 year old. It's been excruciatingly uncomfortable and shame inducing which is counterproductive to trying to move through this.