I am dealing with so much chronic stress and I can’t take it. I need help. I haven’t been to the doctor in ages because of being underemployed and I myself feel like I’m dying. My lexapro is not helping anymore and I need affordable help in NYC and google is not helpful.

Ive just moved here.

My mom passed away almost 2 years ago now from cancer and stroke and my aunt died the exact same way 2 weeks ago and I feel like absolute shit. My grandma died shortly after my mom as did my god mom. I’m 27 and all the women I trust are dying.

I’m only working a part time job now and am working my ass off to find a well paying full time to pay for school

I have no emotional support in my dad bc he doesn’t know how, always “forgets” I have PMDD, and what’s worse tracks my period and uses it as a means to ignore me or invalidate my feelings. He literally laughs.

I’m at my limit and PMDD makes it so much harder. I just want to sleep and I wake up to so much stress and it’s been for like 2 years. There’s so much grief and so much rebuilding I have to do and I am overwhelmed. I haven’t been able to go to the doctor in ages bc my last job was contract and I’m only part time now. I need a mom’s hug. A parent’s hug and I can’t have one.