NEED ADVICE- Everything I share from my story were acts of complete consent from everyone involved. All was consensual but I need advice now- I’m 28 years old and have been working out the details of a plan to seduce and have sex with my mom. This all started back when I was 18 and my parents were recently divorced. I was visiting my mom and staying the night and we were drinking a bit. She has always been the “fun mom” and not cared if I drank and partied so long as I was smart and safe about it. So we were drinking and watching tv and chatting but we both were falling asleep on the couch cuz it was hot and we were pretty tipsy so we decided to go up to our rooms. We had separate rooms so at first thought I figured the normal night has come to an end. I was thinking about masturbating cuz that’s what horny teenagers do when they go to bed drunk but I was cut short by my mom’s voice at my door. Luckily she didn’t see what I was watching on my phone so I closed out my browser quickly as she began to speak, “Hey, I was wondering if you could come sleep in my room cuz I was feeling kind of down” This was normal for how close my mom was with all of us boys as I do have 3 brothers and I’m the 2nd youngest. So without a second thought I said sure and hopped over to her room and climbed in bed n started changing the channel on her tv. She joined and laid down right next to me in bed with her head on my chest. She kissed me as a typical mother would kiss her son before dozing off but instead of closing her eyes and looking away she continued to stare up at me. She kissed me again but this time it felt a lot more passionate and longer. We stopped kissing and I could only look at her with shock as it was unexpected and I wasn’t sure if it was weird. A few seconds passed before she kissed me a third time and this one was a lot wetter than any kiss I’ve ever had from my mom. She did not use tongue but there was a lot more saliva and feelings into this last kiss. Since I was already turned on before even coming to her room I let the kiss longer probably longer than I should have but I couldn’t help myself. We did not make out or anything it was just a very wet passionate kiss. Still unsure of how to feel about it I eventually turned my head away and I saw a big smile come across my moms face as she closed her eyes and laid her head back on my chest. I spent the next several minutes just trying to process what happened moments ago between me n my mom. I wanted so badly to make a move on her but I was still thinking “there’s no way mom is coming into me, right?” And sure enough as I was trying to wrap my head around the situation I feel her hand work its way down and find a nice comfortable spot on the outside of my sport shorts right on my dick. I was speechless at this point. So many thoughts running through my head. Was it the booze? Did she even realize she had a hand full of my cock? Was it intentional or was it an accident? Why is her hand not moving? It was all so much to think about. It never went past this moment. We went to sleep and I woke up the next day and went on my way as if everything was normal. Somehow my dad found out about all this and I wasn’t allowed to see my mom for quite a while. In fact I haven’t talked to her in years but this memory and this moment we shared has stayed stuck in my head and heart this whole time. I constantly masturbate to the “what if” scenarios that could’ve played out had I had enough courage to make a move back then. But I’m 28 now and haven’t spoken to my mom in years. I know she wants to reconnect with me but I’m not sure if she still feels the same way about me as she did in that moment. I really do want to explore more down this path with my mom as I think it could lead to us having a good mother-son relationship and I could have my mom back plus more. I was thinking of reaching out to her to go visit her. I would rent a hotel room and I would take her out to a movie and some dinner. We’d have a couple drinks and then I’d invite her back to my hotel so we can keep catching up. Back at my hotel I would have some more alcohol, one bed, condoms out on the bedside table and my laptop hooked up to the tv while it’s on rest mode. I’ll offer her a drink and make us both one while I talk about some memories we share back around when I was about 18 hopefully getting us laughing and relaxing. When she slips away to use the restroom I will take my laptop out of rest mode and the tv will project on the screen my tab I had preloaded up of my “porn to show to mom one day” folder that I have been building up throughout the years. When she leaves the restroom and sees the tv and the mom-son porn playing I’ll pretend to be shocked as if I didn’t even notice it was on and I’ll rush over to “shut it off” but then start scrolling through some and commenting on them. Then I will start asking her about her latest sexual explorations and share mine with her. Then I’ll start asking vague questions about the best way to turn a woman on or how to know for sure I’ve made a woman cum and other explicit questions like this. I’m hoping with this plan and the combination of the drinks, I will be able to get my mom in the mood and mindset to have sweet passionate sex with me and hopefully lead to an ongoing friends with benefits style relationship. I’m really nervous that if something backfires, she’ll tell me dad and brothers and inadvertently ruin my connection with the rest of the family. I don’t think she would feel encouraged to tell anyone especially with her currently being so disconnected from the family and this being the first time we see each other in almost 10 years. What do you guys think I should do? Is it smart to go through with this plan? Do you think it will work or is there something more I can do to make sure it works? What are your thoughts on the matter? This story is 100% true as are the people involved. Please help me out here lol