Does anyone has tips for people who obsess over work problems. I work in sales for an IT VAR and it is constant fire drills because of poor processes within my organization. For example, I have an order that I need to place on Monday, however I have special pricing on it. I asked my specialist to confirm when the bid would expire prior to going on break and he told me it goes until Dec. However, that was wrong information and the pricing is now expired. If I process as is, I will take a 6k hit. We should be able to have the pricing reinstated, but its frustrating how I planned everything and one things sets me back. I’m not negligent, but things always go wrong and I obsess over it.

I’m doing well in my job, but I’m becoming increasingly apathetic towards working. Its contradictory, but I’m apathetic and stressed at the same time. My job is all I really have going right now and it really isn’t fulfilling. I have short stints on my resume, due to the pandemic, so leaving isn’t really an option. At the same time, I have to evaluate if I really want to leave, or if I’m just stressed at the moment. Also, other people work stressful jobs and are fine, so why should I be different?

Normally, all my problems get resolved, but it takes a lot out of me. I can’t tell if I don’t like sales or just the area of sales i’m in. You do a lot of account management and admin work in the VAR space and you have to learn about a lot of products. I miss running demos and prospecting for a specified portfolio of solutions. I’m 30 now and can’t leave my job or my field. I have constant thoughts that for the rest of my life will just be the same corporate routine and that is something I struggle with.

I’m grateful for having a job and don’t want to complain. But i can’t help feeling waking up every day tired, apathetic and low energy isn’t a good way to live my life. I have to psych myself up a lot. I make okay money, but for NYC it never feels like enough.

Am I alone here? Everyone else I know seems content in their lives and not chronically stressed, so this seems like a me problem and not my job.

Does anyone have advice?