I'm barely 30 myself. And recently after 3 years my now ex just said she couldn't do it anymore and then drug it out over a month and half of waffling and still sleeping together. To ulimately say she "wants a more adventurous life" and thats shes "too toxic for me" about 2 weeks ago and went No contact.

She had 2 kids who I really had started to think of as my own. And now that whole life, family we were building is just gone.

It didn't seem like she fully wanted to move on but I couldn't get a straight answer from her either.

I still dream about her and them every night and it's agonizing not to reach out to her. Especially since I've been making serious progress on a few positive changes in my life lately.

In any case. Ive tried going out on dates, and even slept with another woman since. And it just makes me feel worse and miss her more the more I experience the absolute trash that the dating scene is right now.

I want kids and a life partner and I know it's silly but I feel like I'm running out of time.

How do I move past this? How do I move past her? I'm not sure ill ever stop missing her kids though.

I'm still holding on hope she will realize and come back but... I'm probably just in denial

I'm struggling fellas lol