I’ve been on a few dates with a few different with women over the past few weeks. All my dates felt the same, I schedule through their times and we go to a bar or for a drink but I feel as if I’m missing a form of romantic attraction.

They were all nice and all the dates ended on positive notes but it felt like I was never really interested in them as I thought I was.

I met them all online. I think part of me wanted to see if I could actually achieve going on dates considering how some men speak of the difficulty of getting to that point.

Maybe it’s been a while since I last went on a date but it felt very unnatural to initiate physical contact. Our conversations weren’t as free flowing as I expected but that can be worked on.

After most of my dates I asked when next I could see them, my answers were practically the same.

“In like a week” “I have a packed schedule this incoming week” “I’ll let you know when I check my schedule”

It really killed my desires. I understand people have busy schedules but jeez it’s quite tiring to reschedule.

I think it’s because I wasn’t as assertive as I should’ve been. I wouldn’t say I’m not assertive enough but It feels like I’m developing a hyper vigilant feeling of not wanting to cross boundaries.

My in person meets seem to get me the same vibe.

In the end I’ve been told I’ve been giving more of a friendly vibe.

I’m unsure what dating is supposed to feel like now.