I know he likes my body, we’ve been together for a year he and wouldn’t want to marry me if he wasn’t attracted to me, but I just don’t get why it isn’t enough that he needs to seek porn to jerk off, no matter how infrequently. I tried therapy and didn’t go too far with it, and I’ll probably try it again but it doesn’t change anything if he doesn’t do his part and commit to us sexually 100% and not to seek other stimuli from other women. I don’t do it to him

I found searches for big tit Indian porn, when I’m a petite white/Hispanic girl. That fucked me up. How is that okay?

It is affecting our relationship. He has had ED since I met him a year ago but that’s something I don’t hold against him and I’m supportive about and he finally took a step towards getting meds so I think things will get better, but I think also dropping the porn would help us because he knows how much it affects me when he seeks other women to jerk off to, I don’t think that’s healthy. I don’t seek other men to stimulate me. I am an attractive person and have a high sex drive and initiate 90% of the time, so I do think I should be sufficient to him. Him watching porn, no matter how infrequently, tells me I’m not sufficient

Probably not great, I didn’t think men would be jacking off to my nodes, they were kinda basic ones in not very suggestive poses, just to get opinions on my body. Again, not validating what I am doing but the porn situation is different, I am not jerking off to big black cocks and hunks from porn hub while my partner is available to me. I love him and I want him and I don’t want any other men but him sexually, but he seeks other women to jerk off to sometimes and why can’t he be happy with me alone?

I have, I started therapy, I got a breast augmentation, I watch my weight, I buy sexy lingerie for him, I initiate sexually 90% of the times and I’m extremely loving and sexually available to him, I really don’t know what else to do, I’m doing my absolute best to be all he wants and craves sexually but somehow it’s not enough if he has to cave in to random women in porn occasionally

I know, sorry, It’s just because the sub flags it as asking about sex stuff and doesn’t let me post

I blurred my face, I just wanted opinions on my body from an anonymous standpoint to seek validation that my body isn’t the problem. Not saying it’s right but I’ve been highly insecure as a result of his porn searches

I’ve been with my BF for a year and he has mild ED as possible result from past drug abuse (coke) and I’ve been very supportive with him despite him not always performing and me having a really high sex drive, so when I found porn in his phone of girls that look nothing like me it hurt me deeply and caused a trauma to the point I had to go to therapy and even got a boob job. I have been extremely supportive but the thought of him jerking off to other women kills me and hurts me deeply and I tried to live with the thought he may occasionally do it but came to realize it hurts me too much when I only have eyes for him and we’ve reached a breaking point. I am an attractive woman and give him all he wants and constantly check on him on what I can do to spice things up. He finally took a step towards getting ED meds and told me he would quit porn but he is visual and would like to have nudes of me for when he needs an easy release or we’re apart. I’m hoping this works because I love him deeply but can’t go through this again with the porn