I had a two-parent upper middle-class household and never went to bed hungry. From 1st to 5th grade, was bliss; I had a friend who went to the same school across the street and played with regularly. But after 5th grade, my friend moved away and I started middle school. I didn't make much friends but did get to play one year of football. From 6th grade onward, my parents started fighting pretty often 2-8x a month. (smashing dishes, cursing each other out, hitting each other). My dad's paranoia about voodoo started during this time and all of us had to clean ourselves with herbs. He also became paranoid about a hacker that was entering the house when no one was home and tampering with tech, food, and water. This continued to present day.

I completed 9th grade and switched back to my old school, and that's where things get hairy. I started the school year at 200 lbs and ended up 275 by junior year which led me to a black market marijuna vape cart addiction, benzo abuse. I ended up having an episode of self harm where I burned my arms with matches, and slashed them with a scissor. The scars remain to this day. I was studying pretty much all day every day hanging out with friends 3-4 times a year. I got pretty generous b-day gifts from my mom during this time, which was really sweet.

This was happening as my parents fights continued. I got a great score and got into a great medical program with my bestfriend, which was my dream to be a doctor but got kicked out due to low GPA. I started to purse medical school outside the program and pledged a frat. I got hazed severely (had nightmares for months after) the worse in recent frat history. I continue to purse medicine but cracked after the second time I took my MCAT and gave up on medicine all together to purse computer science.This stung I then isolated myself completely because a lot my frat brothers were dicks, but some were great but graduating. 3 years passed of just school, home, sleep. I started anti-depressants a few months ago and I am 5 8 terrible acne no muscle all fat have been since I was 16. I haven't seen friends in 2 years. I am booksmart but I have ADHD and can't get meds becuz my mom won't allow it.

Is this just a typicall life living in America, was my life hard, or am I just a sensitive person?