I waited until I was in a better mood to drop this question, but I feel like I’ve tried so much, yet I just can’t catch break.

I’m not the best looking guy in the room and I’m shorter than the average guy, but i do my best to look and be clean, kept, and approachable. I’m kind of boring - as much as I hate using that word - but between college and work, I don’t have the time or money to be interesting. And while I’m a bit timid, I try to break out of my shell whenever I can.

For example, I’ve built up the courage to ask nine different women out over the course of a month, but I was rejected every time. And I do roll with the punches but after rolling with the punches for so long, it’s worn me down enough to barely even consider trying again. Hell, almost to the point of saying it’s pointless.

Then I tried dating apps, and from them I had one relationship that lasted only six months and was going pretty good. Then out of left field, the morning after we almost had sex, she breaks up with me. I was upset about it, but I accepted it and moved on eventually.

When I was back in a good headspace, I tried to put myself back out there, but nothing but aimless conversations had come of it. And eventually, I just stopped and deleted them altogether.

I even tried asking for some help through friends, but again, nothing. One ghosted me, another straight told me I wasn’t what she was looking for, and the last was already taken and tried to get me in on some conspiracy to cheat on him.

I’m contemplating giving up entirely. But the thing is, I don’t want to. I want to keep searching and trying but it feels like I’m walking into a wall.