Like a man is said to feel sexual attraction visually & could just determine if he's attracted to someone instantly & unintentionally. For me, it's like i have to tell my brain to feel attraction or not. It's like attraction is native app in everyone's pc brain & for me, i have to use an emulator to feel it. idk what it is. like if i focus on random person enough, see all features & acts, i started being attracted to them. if i focus on own enough, i started finding myself attractive too. it's weird asf but idk what it is. like i just have a brain switch for attraction that i can just turn on/off.

it's giving me problem. i can't figure out my sexuality. I sometimes think of myself being asexual, but i watch corn & i masturba8 thinking of two ppl doing it with each other. my eyes get drawn to hot people on the street too. i see them as hot but i just don't feel anything for them until i tell my brain to feel attracted to them or until it don't pick up some signals to feel that way & am stuck in loop 'am i attracted to that person? or am i not'.

Pls help me out if there is a name for this thing. Is it a normal thing? Do everyelse feel like this too? Is it just ocd making me doubt, everyone feel same?