My (34F) boyfriend (37M) is out of town for a family emergency. Not getting into the emergency to not reveal too much identity but it’s legit. He took his son as well, because it involved the possibility of this being the last time they can see an important family member. I wasn’t able to go because of the last minuteness of the situation and the cost of flights for the distance. It was like, either his sone could go with him or me but not both, and we decided it was best for the son to go.

He is somewhere that has a beach (we live in a landlocked part of the country) and today he has some downtime, and his son wasn’t up for going out much today so he went on his own. For the record, I completely trust him and he has not given me any reason to think anything shady is going on. At all. Our relationship is going super well, our sex life is amazing and there’s not a reason I could think of that he would be unfaithful. It’s just my own insecurities popping up and these random thoughts in my head about all the beautiful women potentially being there in bikinis lol. I have no issue with him finding other women attractive, I know this is human nature and we are honest with each other about this too. I just keep thinking about like, what if he meets some hot woman who also has a great personality, hits it off and then has some doubts about me?

I have had trauma relating to this kind of thing with a super toxic, narcissistic ex who cheated on me every time he traveled without me. And it would almost always be sex and the emotional part too. I know deep down my current bf is not like that at all, and when I really think about it, he has not given me any reason to doubt him. I don’t want to keep him from going because of my insecurities, I feel like letting whatever happens happen is the only way I’ll know it’s okay if it is. I don’t want to project my own insecurities based on past bs that isn’t even his fault.

This is also the first time in the relationship that one of us has traveled without the other.

I’m also 5 months pregnant so I recognize that my emotional response may be emphasized by my hormones, which is why I’m looking for some objective, factual insight.

I guess I’m just looking for any insight from any men who have traveled without their SO for any reason. Like what happens to you or in your head when you meet a beautiful woman with a great personality and your SO is not there?

Thank you in advance!