I’m a good looking guy who’s been working out my entire life, and I’m working hard to be a fire fighter. I’ve never had a hard time getting a date or sex, but keeping them has been the challenge. One night stands don’t do it for me anymore I want an emotional connection with the sex.

For a long time I thought it was me, so I’ve been working on myself and trying to be self aware by staying stoic philosophy, but I learned that was me internalizing the behavior of insecure women.

women have shit like “why are you with me” one said I was just waiting out the pandemic to leave her . Another said she was gonna break up with me when I become a firefighter because she didn’t want to be “that dumb girl”

On the flip side there are women who are drawn to me thinking I’m gonna be toxic, but get weird when I actually start trying to build a healthy relationship with them.

They have no idea the shit I’ve had to overcome, the most recent one thought she was too fucked up for me. She had no idea how flawed I am. It’s so frustrating.

I’m aware that it could the women im choosing is the problem, but I had a fucked up childhood I think I bound easier with women who have suffered like me.