I haven’t been with a woman, I haven’t even touched one sexually yet. I’m almost desperate to try. I’ve gone on a few dates with other women but nothing goes pass the first date. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m super unappealing or if we just aren’t clicking.

I got the idea to go to a strip club, very recently after I failed to go to a gay bar (it was closed and I wasn’t able to stay until it was open). Frankly, I’m terrified to go in a strip club. The idea scares me. Maybe a combo of stop much true crime and me feeling like the locations are just creepy. If what I heard about gentleman clubs is true, is it better I go there instead to at least see somewhat/fully naked women for the first time in person?

Oh, I should make it clear, I think I’m not straight but I’m mostly going on dreams I’ve had with women, my wants from middle school that never got fulfilled, the fact I don’t enjoy viewing malexfemale porn much, and my lack of an ability to find dudes in general attractive to the point I often don’t pursue and when I do I find reasons for the dude to not be interesting.

May I have some advice on this? Am I crazy for even wanting to do this?

Edit: I forgot I’m (F30)