For some context I’m a 28 year old cis woman. I’ve known I wasn’t straight since I was like 11 years old. I came out as bi at 15, however I’ve been all over with what I actually identify with. For years I was bi, then pan, then gay. Today, I thought could it possibly be internalized homophobia? My family is VERY religious (christians to be exact. Also when I say family I don’t mean my mother or brother) and that was deeply rooted in my childhood. I also have very little interest in men, always have. I find most men unattractive, and the relationships I had with them weren’t good. When I think of an ideal relationship, it’s never with a guy. Sexually I have no interest either, and intimacy with men was never good and I was never aroused by them (could possibly be asexual or demisexual, still working on that). However, for some reason I still sometimes, very rarely gravitate towards men. So my question is, could internalized homophobia be forcing me to still have a very small interest in men?