(I thank each and every one of you who have commented, I'm grateful for your efforts) I'm 19, from Delhi NCR and for my university I live in Dehradun.

I've never been in a relationship, never kissed anyone or anything of that sort. I'm more of an old school lover who is not into hookups and ONS etc. Now inherently I'm shy around girls as I care for them a lot and I'm an introvert. So, I don't talk to many people and all the female friends I do have are not looking for a relationship or are just not my type.

Now I started online dating and by online dating I mean I started it on reddit. Dating apps are completely skewed when it comes to dating for guys. I started posting on r4r subs, in India. I didnt get too many responses but there were a few. On a few of them girls said that I'm such a green flag but I'm not their type and others ended up ghosting me mid great convo. I really tried to write in a manner that puts my real personality in front, but it didn't work. I did my best to become the become the guy my sisters wanted and raised tbh.

Now on the other hand, I'm a teen and my hormones are high af and I never got too much female attention so I started posting my nudes on reddit, anonymously obviously. Even there I mentioned it loud and clear that I'm not looking for hookups but actual long term relationships (I crave love). The number of responses and traction I got through there, was shocking for me. But all of them wanted hookups or casual sex.

Now I'm in a dilemma, should I continue looking for an actual relationship or should I Atleast lose my virginity to someone? The reason I'm not going for hookups is because I'm sure I'll catch feelings and fall in love especially since it is my first time. Should I continue to save myself for the one?(all of whom who show zero interest in me) or go for hookups?

TL;DR Should I continue searching for a relationship to lose my virginity or should I atleast lose my virginity as I can't get a date.