I've always had a small group of friends - all through school, college, grad school, and adult life. The makeup of the group changes as people change or relocate. I am close with my friends and put in effort to maintain these relationships despite a jam packed personal and professional life. But I've never felt like I had a 'best friend.' That every friend has someone they are closer with, that they would prioritize over me. Is this my own insecurity? Is it a gay thing? The majority of my friends before leaving home were women, so was there a bond that I could not share with my female friends because I was not female? Does the 'best friend' exist after a certain age, or are all friends just friends? Is it because I've been in my current relationship for most of my adult life and so my husband is my best friend? Does anyone else feel this way?