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Hey everyone!
I have recently found this community and have been reading a lot of posts and some great advice from you all. And decided to ask for advice on my situation.
I am a 27 years old gay man who hasn't been into any serious relationship or even any emotional exchange in his life. This is mainly because since I was 18, I have been traveling the world, living, studying, working in different countries and cities. So that lifestyle didn't really allow me to have a relationship and I didn't want to give anyone any promises knowing that I might move away in a couple of months. And in order to do that, I learned how to turn off my emotions and/or run away the moment I see a sign of emotion from other people. So most of my interactions were very shallow meaning that they all were based on sex.
But 3 years ago I have decided to settle down in North America and build my self a new life from scratch. And slowly started to get into the dating scene. And that's when I started to realize how emotionally immature I was because I didn't have any experience in relationships and not only in romance but also lack of friendships and family has put me in a shell that is very hard to get out of.
This Monday night I had a random Grindr hookup that was supposed to be one of those nights that I'll meet up with someone, have fun and come back home. And it was nothing like what I expected. It was probably the best night I have ever had in my life. It was out of a romantic movie. We had sex, cuddled, and made out for hours while just flirting and complimenting each other. He showed a real interest in me and remembered everything I said. And then he asked me to stay (This was the first time I ever spent the night with a guy) my head was on his chest and everything... In the morning we kept going, and after the shower when I was about to leave he asked me if he could give me his number. We exchanged numbers and I asked him to text me if he'd like to have dinner together that evening. But I didn't hear from him that evening (He was going for an apartment hunt which can be a very excruciating process in this city) so when I saw him online on Grindr I messaged him that night, asking about his apartment situation. We chatted a little bit and then agreed not to meet up for the night since he was very tired. But since I left his apartment I just can't stop thinking about him and I just want to be with him which is a very new feeling to me.
I am just so inexperienced in this situation that I don't know how to approach him or I don't even know how to navigate through what I am feeling. I have been with hundreds of guys in the past, why am I feeling different things for him? Why am I so excited about him? How should I approach him? Should I play 'cool' and let him text me or should I wait a couple of days and then text him so I wouldn't look clingy or needy? What is the acceptable wait time or when should I give up on waiting for him to reach out to me? I am in such a foreign territory that I am extremely confused and a little bit panicking.
I don't know if I asked a clear question but I'd appreciate any advice that can help me navigate through this feeling and help me understand how to approach him. I am definitely aware that just one night is not enough to know and develop feelings for someone. That's why I would love to get to spend more time and learn about him. But due to all the aforementioned reasons, I just don't know how to do that.
Thank you so much for your help in advance!
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