I’m Asian American 35 years old. I just want to be my authentic self. For me, being a guy in public and in professional settings feels right to me. But in my private and romantic life I want a man that might accept me as a guy in public, but loves and encourages me to be his girl.

I don’t feel comfortable presenting myself as feminine in public and at the same time it would feel weird to be a guy in private and in the bedroom.

Side note: I have never dated in my life. It’s been mostly straight men that found me attractive and just wanted a sexual relationship. It’s my own fault but I definitely want to change that and maybe I should manifest in my thoughts of what I want.

Not sure what type of men to look for. Obviously straight men ultimately want women. Gay men ultimately want a man. I don’t quite fit the mold of a gay relationship and I feel more connected to a hetero relationship but obviously I’m not a biological female.

I’m so attracted to masculinity and I also love when a man is attracted to my femininity. Maybe there is a guy out there that won’t mind me as a guy in public and do normal fun guy stuff like sports and outdoors 😂 but in private and in the bedroom I’m all girl to him. This isn’t something I could post on a dating site. lol

This is something I’ve been struggling with so I thought I’d just write down my thoughts. What kind of guys would date me? Haha