I (26M) have known that I was attracted to guys since I started puberty. However, this kind of thing is “obscene” where I grew up so I never talked about it. Most of my life I’ve tried to suppress it and even had a relationships with a couple of girls. But my attraction for guys always lingered in the background. I’d just try to ignore it or semi-satisfy with porn.

A year and a half ago, my life basically started to fall apart and for the first time I didn’t have a goal to keep me busy. This led to me giving myself permission to explore myself for the first time ever. This exploration led to a lot of things including realizing that I’d only ever be happy with a guy.

Fast forward to today. Im planning on telling my mom that I’m gay this weekend. She and I have been super close my whole life. Im her only child and my dad wasn’t in the picture. I have no idea how she’s gonna take it and I’m scared that it’s going to ruin our relationship. I just feel that as close as we are, she doesn’t really know me if she doesn’t know this. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!