Me 21, have two jobs but make no where near enough to live on my own, closeted and alone. Family would never accept me as queer, especially if I’m looking for a relationship with a man. I crave a relationship but I’m also realistic my situation is unfavorable. I don’t want to fuck around, I want to be loved. I see my friends and siblings in relationships and I feel like shit knowing if only I was straight maybe I could have a slice of what that amazing feeling feels like. I’ve left behind me a situationship that lead me nowhere, I’ve been slowly getting over him but it still pains me day to day. My heart is young and that part of me, who’s able to give unconditional love is still intact. And I want to give that to someone who can return it to me. I’ve been waiting and I can’t stand being alone anymore. Am I ready for a real relationship or am I foolish to think I deserve this in life right now?