I think my friend with benefits is tired, bored, or done with me. My eyes are a bit watery rn, writing this on my bed thinking about the past three weeks of dry, dead conversations, distance and unaffectionate he has been. I feel We were able to create this perfect mutual ground, a safe space to explore with one another. The memories of all the time we’ve spent together. We were very affectionate and loving, which went beyond sex. Heck he even took me out on my first date. We’ve been meeting for over a year, and I love him very much. But In the last month I contracted a sti and he’s been very distant, cold, and disinterested. It’s my first time dealing with this. I don’t know how to handle any of it. My head is spinning and I don’t know how to deal with this. I’m dizzy and I’m sad. I can’t help but to feel dirty and mad at myself. Would u guys end a fwb for something like this?

Ik it’s the reason, it can’t be anything else, but maybe unless if he’s tired of me. Which breaks my heart to think of it. I hate being so sensitive to rejection, abandonment, and betrayal. I’ve been told constantly that situationships like these don’t last long, fuck I’d date the man but our lives are at different places, I’m younger and he’s way older, he’s living his best life and I’m barely getting by. It’s not fair. It’s not fair that he gets to move on quickly while I stay behind and think of him. Sry for the rant. :/