Anyone else tired of negging? I’m over it and lonely.

I’m just over it. The negging men will sometimes do to me is insane. I had one guy tell me once, “you have a blank look on your face all the time I’ve never seen a girl do that ever” then he goes oh but your pretty. It’s like wtf. Another guy told me after I sent a pic, “strange outfit choice but cute”. I had on like a jogger set, like blue yoga pants and a long sleeve blue top. I remember long ago when I was a waitress I had a male customer tell me randomly “I don’t like your eyelashes”. I’m like lol ya dude your not even attractive. I just can’t get over how important they think their opinion is. I would never date you! Idc if you like them. It’s just insanity.

Gets better. A guy told me had misogynist sexual fantasies intense ones. I said one thing after that like wtf? He goes, “no you don’t talk to me like that it’s over. I have standards.” I’m like bro you literally are a secret misogynist and you’re talking to me about standards. They prop themselves up so high and walk away at the first sign of anything they don’t like. I really wish women were taught that. I am learning to do that on my own. What sucks is I love fashion beauty and dressing up. Never for men! I’ve loved it since ei was a little girl. I do it for myself. I either get jealousy from women (not all women but some) or negging from men. I just get it to a point where it’s like geez. I loved the Barbie movie and i felt like it really spoke to me as a girly girl that wants to be a feminist. Sometimes I don’t know how to handle women and I want to have friendships where we support each other. No bringing each other down I don’t want to offend you sis and if your man flirts with me I will tell you!! I’ve been burned so badly by women in most of my friendships that I’m alone now. I don’t have mental space for backstabbing. I moved into a neighborhood and met a girl on my street. She was so rude to me and I was super bubbly and sweet. That’s my personality. She adds me on Facebook and writes a long post, “I am so glad I don’t have blonde hair anymore or wear makeup!!!” I couldn’t help but feel attacked, just dissing my whole look right after adding me. Months later she dyed her hair blonde. ?? I just have zero space for drama. And then I have to deal with these men. I shut myself off from friendships even though I want them! IIt’s lonely!!!