I'm the one in blue and he is the one in red

For context, we dated for some time last year. When I first saw him I swear it was love at first sight and I'm not even kidding like I didn't even BELIEVE it could happen and yet it did, honest to god. I was the one to pursue him and at first everything was going nicely but then he started pulling away and I had to end things because it was messing with my heart. He was very hot and cold and it just triggered me due to some personal trauma. But, apart from that, I could tell he wasn't into me, at least not as much as I was and I didn't see his interest growing to be honest.

I thought ending things would help me move on, but it's been months and I still CRY over him. It still hurts as much as it did back then. Whenever he watches my stories on IG it feels like a stab to the heart because I know it doesn't mean anything to him and I still think about every single day. I'm kind of desesperate to end this lol not even gonna lie!

Will I ever get over him? Am I not supposed to get over him and instead suffer until I'm 80? What is even going on at this point.

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