First time posting here, I'm not sure if I'm a sociopath or psychopath, I can say I can be an empathic person, I can understand what others might be feeling or going trough accurately, but most time I just dont care, I just feel the emptiness like if it doesnt matter, I have a big ego and I love to feel above everyone, doesnt matter where, specially if I have to get involved in something that includes socialization, that doesnt mean I want to constantly participate in stuff, I hate the competence or people that can challenge my position, when I see someone with that potential I automatically start to hate it, my empathy turns off and I feel a very violent urge, I cant explain it, but I suddenly feel a deep rage burning inside of me, sometimes thats too much to handle so I must distract myself, its like a panic attack, I have the urge to brutalIy to attack them physically or verbally.

The same things happens when I get jealous about someone features or stuff, its not like I hate successful people, but I dont like the ones that seem to not deserve it or doesnt have my respect, for example if I see an ugIy person having a girlfriend, or a stupid looking person in general, or if I dont like their voice, or their attitude, damn, almost doesnt matter who that person is, or if I know them, I can get turned on like that in seconds, doesnt even matter how good is my mood, I can be very resentful, Its like that American psycho scene of Patrick and the business cards lmao (I'm not a sigma male or that whatever, I find that crlngy, its just I like that scene)

That usually happens to me with everything because I'm very irritable, even trough I consider myself very chill and relaxed with some stuff, some stuff that most folks would consider annoying, and vice-versa, the problem is that I'm becoming less and less empathic, I can understand them without problem, but I dont care if they are suffering or not, I used to be sensitive with that as a child (Not like I would cry, but like, damn poor guy) now I feel like I could use them feelings and manipulate them and I wouldnt care, I wouldnt feel something, I feel empty, sometimes I'm too mad that when I get cold again I cant believe how I can be that crazy. I'm egoistic but that doesnt mean I'm stupld like most people would think about it, it doesnt mean I cant share stuff, but I will prioritize myself overall, that means if, for example to get something I have to share stuff, be nice, help others, or sacrifice stuff, everything at the ends it fit my big picture.

Its also messing up my social skills because I usually get so mad instantly if people are talking bulIshlt or being reI4rded/crlngy I just cant stand it, I just lock out, If I see someone taller, (I'm not even short I'm almost 6'1) round me, I dont like that, or folks with some features I wish I had, I loose all the empathy for them, I have the urge to punch them lol, destroying them and feel that pleasure, Its addictive and makes me feel alive, I dont think I'm insecure, but I really enjoy being in control and mess with people I consider inferior, I dont respect them, I have the urge to use them only as tools because I feel they are useless and they deserve to be dominated, and I wouldnt care if I could klll them or whatsoever, sometimes I dont care about them, even sometimes I feel a little of empathy for them, It doesnt mean that I cant respect people but its very hard to have my true respect or admiration, you have to be a good partner or friend for example, or someone that I feel like they are really important or special and they use that good and fair, I know that what I said can sound messed and edgy for some people, but I'm just talking about my thoughts, Its good to know if someone can relate, share experiences or just chat.