I have some questions about sex and sexuality. I identify and asexual, I don't have sexy thoughts or feelings. I like to feel attractive and I like to be desired and wanted and loved but I've never been horny per se or found interest outside of learning in erotica, porn, etc. I do have sex and I kind of enjoy it. But if I also were to never have sex again I wouldn't feel a thing is missing. But with my boyfriend I have never craved intimacy to this extent ever. I want to be held, I want to be kissed, I want his hands on my body, I want us so close together constantly. I feel false, like I have lied to myself and to others and I was always confused by my nonhatred for sex. It's like a specific snack. If I never ate like a specific snack again. I wouldn't really think about it. Sometimes it would come up but it would just more be like yeah that snack, and then keep on with the thoughts. And if a chance came up I'd be like cool let's taste snack, but I don't actively seek out the snack. Does that make me asexual of just have an incredibly low libido? But with my BF am I demi instead of ace?